i AM SO FREAKING SORRY I'M NOT PERFECT OK JUST 
THE WORLD IS AGAINST ME
MY PATHETIC SELF

let me crawl into a hole
a hole filled with The New Yorker issues, Tazo tea, and books
a hole where i can magically grow 10 inches
a hole where i can be myself
a hole without the trivial and idiotic aspects of my life
a hole without meanies and stupidos

just let me live my life
happily and
vicariously
if that's what i want

which is sad because these days
i feel like i live most of my life
at night,
when i dream

it's when i actually live

-grass