analysis of recent grassy feels

A detailed analysis as to why I feel so downtrodden these days:

Possible hypotheses:

• father is on business trip
• chem grade
• stress from sat + chem + badminton

Hypothesis:

• combined factors of the above three

Observations:

• obsession with checking School Loop
• frantic studying for Organic Chem
• repeated thoughts of failure
• whimsical thoughts of philosophy and the purpose of life
• hatred towards idiotic individuals
• exasperation with people
• jealousy of carefree people
• obsessive calculations of grades

Possible Solutions:

• after Friday, my life will be ok again
• unless I fail
• only time
• TIME
• IS
• PRICELESSSSSSSSSSS
• communication with family + friends
• i miss my dad
• why do i miss him so much?
• i don't know he just went to korea and i didn't miss him at all lolz maybe because that time I was doing very poorly oh RIGHT I JUST GOT MY SAT SCORE AND WAS TOO ENGULFED IN MY OWN GRIEF
• time management!

Things to remember:

• there are people who love me
• right garlic right
• you do right
• grades aren't everything
• if i get a mediocre grade i will still live
• i will just have to settle for ohlone
• no stop
• stop living in the past
• stop daydreaming
• stop living vicariously
• make the most of life
• make time for yoga, it'll help with efficiency
• remember that God has a plan for me
• maybe it doesn't involve going to premed at Brown
• just remember that He is always there
• thanks God
• i don't know i've been praying for a sign that you simply exist and maybe (i apologize for the qualifier but i am still unsure) maybe you already gave me the sign
• normally i don't walk that way but I met the Cheese and went to Youth Alive and just
• lately i've been doubting everything again
• but I feel like after going I am back on the right track
• anyway just thanks, God
• expressing my thanks through the interwebz
• in case my thoughts aren't always on the right track
• ok i'm sorry
• I don't know why i feel so lonely when I'm so fortunate
• I guess opportunities also come with standards, ya know?

It's almost friday.

TGIF.

-grass