life

I've decided to seriously start writing on this blog. Not just my ridiculous "thought" posts, although I think those are kind of cute ;).

I've just had a few things on my mind lately that I think would be better for me to say out loud, anonymously of course. 

I recently read an article about people who are "energy drainers." They are appropriately named, as they basically suck the energy out of your very soul. Just kidding. Not that extreme. 

But I can definitely identify a few "energy drainers" in my life. The thing is, as much as I wish I could avoid them, I can't. Some of them are my best friends. And we all get caught up in Asian High School Drama, which I shall abbreviate to AHSD. We don't care as much about boys as we do about grades, college, GPA, and whatnot.

But as any person with common sense can see, the prestige of the college doesn't matter. It's about how well I, as a student, can fit in with the environment. So as much as I try to remind myself that in the end, it's all about how happy I am, how well I fit in, I sometimes still get sucked into the constant chatter about Harvard or Princeton or Yale. And as hard as I try to stay unaffected, I can feel myself slowly conforming to that popular belief. 

I can see myself in the future, cramped in a lab all day, coming home to a too small apartment at night. 

I refuse to follow this fate.

Maybe I'll take a year off between college and grad school to travel, to teach yoga (if my teacher licensing goes well), to live. Maybe I'll write a book. Maybe I'll fulfill my dream of volunteering and making a difference.

The important thing is that I don't get sucked into this fierce academic world obsessed with grades and prestige. The important thing is that I stay true to myself and live out my life as fully as possible, knowing that everything I do, I do for Him.

I refuse to be sucked in.

-grass