Just around the corner

My hands turned to ice while sitting in a shaded area outside by the library. The air was bitter, and I constantly rubbed my hands together to generate heat. I tapped my toes, so they too would not feel numb.

An hour later, I got up and walked to the parking lot. I turned a corner, and the sun was just waiting there for me. I reached my hands out to grab the heat, and ended up covering my face from its radiant blast. Immediately warmth tingled through my body.

Reminds me that at every down point, there is a sun nearby. And maybe I just need to turn the corner. 

annoyed 

so NANOYNG!ED1111

-GRASS

I'm weird

when I find mistakes made by the editors who corrected my stories i'm just like HAH SUCK IT #notugrass

High School Relationships...reassuring myself again

Sometimes I wonder what it would be like to be in a relationship in high school. After watching this video called "Last something" by Wongfu, they talked about high school relationships and how there is something just so innocent and young about high school love. At first, after watching that segment, I wondered to myself if there is something I am missing out on in my four years here. Perhaps there is something. But honestly, now that I think about it, it's probably not an area I want to touch. Why? I want to marry my husband knowing he's my first...in everything: holding hands, kissing (that word is seriously so weird to type. k i s s i n g), dates, traveling, spooning, yes...I actually do think about this stuff grass
And who knows, maybe the first person I date will not be my husband. But in Wongfu's video...idk I just think it's so weird to say, "I had five before you." Like. If my husband told me that...I'd be like okay honey thanks so much f*** u!! yeah actually i seriously think i would say that even though God says not to cuss. hah. Like...in Wongfu's video it's like the guy was fishing around. IF I DATE SOMEONE THAT'S THE PERSON I PLAN TO MARRY!!
so yeah. that's it for now.
ok back to reality

here goes nothing

crossing my fingers and praying to God


ps thanks garlic for the locker decor

appreciate

-grass

i AM SO FREAKING SORRY I'M NOT PERFECT OK JUST 
THE WORLD IS AGAINST ME
MY PATHETIC SELF

let me crawl into a hole
a hole filled with The New Yorker issues, Tazo tea, and books
a hole where i can magically grow 10 inches
a hole where i can be myself
a hole without the trivial and idiotic aspects of my life
a hole without meanies and stupidos

just let me live my life
happily and
vicariously
if that's what i want

which is sad because these days
i feel like i live most of my life
at night,
when i dream

it's when i actually live

-grass

Sad

I feel sad.