Adrenaline

Adrenaline runs around my chest like a sick child
It hurts, it feels like it's bleeding
I swear it's grabbing my heart my now
I can barely take a breath without gasping for air
The air in the room seems to be swirling
Stacks of books and groups of people are nothing right now -- just an undefined blob of colorless parts
I feel like a warrior getting ready to face Death, charging onto a battlefield with nothing before him
I feel like a mouse attempting to grasp that delicious Asagio Rosemary Olive Oil cheese from the mouse trap
I feel like a phone that's been snapped
My face is a bright red, heated and nervous and boiling
My hands are ice, like a dead man's hands on a cold winter day
I am so scared.
I am so scared.
The silence of the room is agitating. The only sound left is the click and clacking of my fingers, bringing more attention to myself then I would like.
Three minutes until I step up to the plate.
Three minutes.
Sometimes I wonder how people do not have heart attacks before public speeches.
Perhaps the ones we see on a television screen are the ones who survive these attacks.
My heart is a nervous container when PV is not equal to nRT and something is about to collapse.
Nervous galore.

I hope every thing will come out ok.
I like to pretend I sing on The Voice.
Which will never happen because I suck at singing, but a girl can dream. 

Here, I have a random collection of photos. Enjoy.

-grass

overwhelmed

overwhelmed
ovER WHELMED

pointless poem

pointless pointless pointless poo

poo is a pointless pointless pointless pile

pointless pointless pointless poo

school is a pointless pointless pointless pile

-garlic

(SAT)urdays

oh, how collegeboard must have laughed when they came up with the infamous "SAT" acronym. 
oh, how i hate you collegeboard. you have a monopoly on college entrance exams and you call yourself non-profit. non-profit my butt!!!!
taking the november sats, and my pre test trauma has officially settled in. i hope it gets nice and cozy because it will stay with me for two weeks.   i think i'm going to live a very chaste and celibate lifestyle for the next two weeks. i will attempt to jam as many vocabulary words as my brain will allow. please god, let me pass my first time. please. 
i should have worked harder.
i should have studied smarter.
but i didn't.
and now i will have a dingy, horrible score to taunt me and prove my worthlessness.
i hate this.


-grass

Oh, this weather

I guess this can kind of be a continuation of grass's blurb about this winter season. 
I definitely feel the effects of autuminter (autum + winter too). I just want to curl up in bed and sleep all day. My motivation relies in hot soups and chocolates. 
I feel as lazy as a sloth...even writing this post takes energy...

'Tis the season

the holidays are almost here. and of course, that means that we're all going to be loosening those belts soon. yesterday, i went to costco and to my utter surprise, i found these lovely caramel apples on display! these aren't very cheap-about $9-but i just had to bring one of these babies home. and boy, am i sorry. 

this is a dark chocolate + toffee flavored apple. i forgot how much i really hate genuine caramel. and toffee, since when did you become so darn sweet?

looks can be deceiving. this definitely does not taste as good as it looks. and this is one thing i can cross off from my danger list because i ain't gonna eat this no more.

-grass